In the day to day

For the last year I have been living at home. NOT what I had in mind for my life, but God knows best. Unfortunately for me, I feel like I have wasted so much this year by doing nothing of importance.

I have totally failed in having a consistent quiet time with the Lord. On the rare occasion that I do take the time to be alone with God, I hear pretty much the same message every time. Hmmm, maybe I should take it to heart, huh? Every time the message is plain, and simple: The true test of your heart is when no one is around, and/or you are just doing the day to day. What is your heart like when no one is watching and what is your attitude when it's something you think is ordinary or unimportant?

My attitude this year in my seemingly ordinary life? Well, I feel like I've always been looking for what's next instead of appreciating everything that's right in front of me. Makes on wonder what you've missed in the process of looking ahead instead of around you.

All in all, it has been a good year. Mostly full of the Lord humbling me and teaching me things regardless of my inactive spirit.
Thank you God for being so faithful, even when I'm being selfish.

You are so good.

Make My Life A Prayer To You

Wow. So what I needed to hear today, and my theme for this season in my life.

Make my life a prayer to You,
I want to do what you want me to,
No empty words and no white lies,
No token prayers, no compromise,
I want to shine the light you gave,
Through Your Son, you sent to save us,
From ourselves and our despair,
It comforts me to know you're really there.

Oh, I want to thank you now, for being patient with me,
Oh, it's so hard to see, when my eyes are on me,
I guess I'll have to trust and just believe what you say,
Oh, you're coming again, coming to take me away,

I want to die, and let you give,
Your life to me, so I might live,
And share the hope you gave to me,
The love that set me free,
I want to tell the world out there,
You're not some fable or fairy tail,
That I made up inside my head,
You're God, The Son, you've risen from the dead.

Oh, I want to thank you now,
For being patient with me,
Oh, it's so hard to see,
When my eyes are on me,
I guess I'll have to trust,
And just believe what you say,
Oh, you're coming again,
Coming to take me away.

I want to die, and let you give,
Your life to me, so I might give,
And share the hope you gave to me,
I want to share the love that set me free.

Oh Life...

So, I am filling out job applications this week. Finally decided to move in with my sister and her husband 3 hours South of my current location. I'm excited, but mostly nervous as all get out. Not sure if I'll come up with enough money to buy a car, move, AND go to school. Maybe that's for the best right now. Could really use some prayers for all of this craziness.

Despite all my nerves about moving deeper into adulthood, I am pretty excited about possibly moving even FARTHER away next fall. Where? I'm not too sure about that minor detail, but I do know it will be out of the country. My best friend and I are praying about taking off for a year and working in an orphanage. We have a few lined up, but so far only one has contacted me back. It's in India : www.lordjesusministry.org .

I'll update more on all of this later. For now, I must work. Boss lady(a.k.a. Mom) is gone on vacation this week. I'm stuck back here to hold up the fort and watch 4 dogs. I feel like a crazy dog lady just sitting around working and talking to dogs all day. Oh no....I'm turning into my mother!! HAHA

Come

I will never grow tired of this song or the way it touches me every time I hear or sing it. Here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it--Seal it for thy courts above. Truth lies herein for me.

Come Thou Fount

Come, Thou Fount of every blessing,
Tune my heart to sing Thy grace;
Streams of mercy, never ceasing,
Call for songs of loudest praise.
Teach me some melodious sonnet,
Sung by flaming tongues above.
Praise the mount! I’m fixed upon it,
Mount of Thy redeeming love.

Sorrowing I shall be in spirit,
Till released from flesh and sin,
Yet from what I do inherit,
Here Thy praises I’ll begin;
Here I raise my Ebenezer;
Here by Thy great help I’ve come;
And I hope, by Thy good pleasure,
Safely to arrive at home.

Jesus sought me when a stranger,
Wandering from the fold of God;
He, to rescue me from danger,
Interposed His precious blood;
How His kindness yet pursues me
Mortal tongue can never tell,
Clothed in flesh, till death shall loose me
I cannot proclaim it well.

O to grace how great a debtor
Daily I’m constrained to be!
Let Thy goodness, like a fetter,
Bind my wandering heart to Thee.
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love;
Here’s my heart, O take and seal it,
Seal it for Thy courts above.

O that day when freed from sinning,
I shall see Thy lovely face;
Clothed then in blood washed linen
How I’ll sing Thy sovereign grace;
Come, my Lord, no longer tarry,
Take my ransomed soul away;
Send thine angels now to carry
Me to realms of endless day.