Life is full of uncomfortable choices. Currently, I am in the midst of one of these choices. Initially this seemed so easy and felt so right. To a certain degree it still does, but I am facing a lot of opposition from people that I love and respect.

Most of my life I have made decisions based on how it would make others feel. I'm always living my life to look good in the eyes of those around me or to please those I love. Those same people are always challenging me to do things that make me happy. To stop living my life to make those around me comfortable

Now that I am doing this, all I get is grief for taking their advice. I don't feel like I should have to apologize for this. I don't belIeve it's right to condemn someone just because you don't agree with them.

Someone please get over here and kick my butt into shape!

Seriously, I really need to make a good friend that will hang out with me and or just challenge me/bug me into keeping up with my fitness and health goals! I have pretty much maintained most of what I lost last year. Lost 30, gained back 10. Still still have about 15-20lbs to go.

I need accountability, so I decided today that I would stop making up excuses about why I'm not being as healthy as I need to be AND start writing about it here...maybe someone out there could keep me in line from time to time if there's a lull?

Well, here I go! Going to the park with Mark today...possibly for a run?(God help me now!) No time like the present to get in shape and be healthy!

Update

I feel like God has been teaching me patience lately. A lesson I apparently just can't grasp. I have been learning some hard lessons that I have been avoiding for quite some time. Kind of wish I would have taken the time to learn these lessons the first time around. I am making more of an effort than I ever have before. Hopefully I can stick to it.

Above all the craziness, God is so good to me. I have been so blessed by my new job and the family I work for. They have been so welcoming ant kind to me. I feel very undeserving of all the blessings I have received this year.

I am going to check out a bible study next Wednesday. Hopefully it's a good fit and I can finally make some friends. I really need to get plugged in somewhere. It's been too long since I have done anything like that.
Kind of nervous and would appreciate prayers.

This summer has been a whirlwind of crazy. Life keeps throwing the unexpected and the uninvited my way. My friends have really been so loving, understanding and supportive. Thank you friends for tour prayers, encouragement, support and faithfulness.

Last night I faced a huge fear of mine. I am still in shock with how relieved I am feeling...Hopefully this lasts. Now I have to sit back and trust God...whatever the outcome at least I have the support of my totally awesome friends and family.

Eyes on the prize

http://rachelheldevans.com/blessed-are-the-uncool

I am reminded almost daily of how uncool I really am. It's humbling and really keeps me in check with reality.

I read this persons blog today and it struck a chord/put me in my place.(spiritually speaking)

Why do we try so hard to be set apart, different, cool...or what have you? It's much easier to be my wired goofy self and much easier to listen to God -not my own dumb self all the time. Sheesh. I love how absolutely simple God can make the mess we have spent so long creating for ourselves.

Simplicity. That's what my heart truly longs for every time I take my eyes off myself.

Priorities

Read this today and it really challenged me. I have recently been more cynical than I would like to be. Could I really truly put God 1st, 2nd, and 3rd? I hope to be constantly striving toward this goal.

"Your priorities must be God first, God second, and God third, until your life is continually face to face with God and no one else is taken into account whatsoever. Your prayer will then be, “In all the world there is no one but You, dear God; there is no one but You.”
Oswald Chambers

It's been a while

Life has been so full of the unexpected and unplanned over the past 2 years. Seems like every time I try to make any major plans for my life the big man upstairs changes things up.

It's summer of 2011 and I am not a tiny bit closer to moving back to Chicago or to India. Truthfully, this makes my heart sad but simultaneously interested in where life will take me.

Money is tight and paychecks aren't coming as promised. Prayers are greatly appreciated.

Oh and I need to make friends over here and find a church.